Confessions of a Rough Sleeper

This article is from a website called Homeless Tales, written by TVParksdale.

Confessions of a Rough Sleeper
by TVParksdale


Ask the poverty-ridden and homeless in a conventional group what they want and they will tell you exactly what they think the public wants to hear. We’ve all been nicely trained to parrot the party lines.

You’ll hear about addictions, mental illness and system scamming. You’ll hear about the need for “supportive housing”, more shelters and better social work services. You will hear exactly what you expect to hear. I refuse to go to any more conventions to hear the same shit that’s shoveled to the tune of no real results. Billions of dollars wasted to say, “Homelessness is a problem.” With a unionized construction crew, we could have housed every homeless person in this country on far less money.***

Ask those same de-housed people what they want behind closed doors, without any coordinator class, social workers or political influence peddlers and listen to the difference.

The story is very, very different.

Behind closed doors, with our own, we hear about how the system is so broken it leads to chronic frustration, clinical depression, increased emotional crisis’, feelings of complete inadequacy and mental breakdowns. You’ll hear how some clients have to have 2-10 workers/lawyers/doctors just to negotiate the paperwork of Ontario Works, ODSP, medical care and housing. You’ll hear the self-hating guilt about having to accept handouts, leftovers and government support from people that could support themselves on token jobs if they didn’t have to pay huge rent or stay in subsidized housing or because we need to obtain the necessary drug/dental/health benefits of government hand-outs that we can’t get unless we succumb to OW/ODSP.

You’ll see the tears over homes we’ve had and loved that weren’t “acceptable” to the outside world. “They took our freedom. They destroyed our community,” are statements I hear frequently.

Squats, camps near train tracks, under the bridges, street crews.

Our dreams of something better—shattered. People we’ve loved, people who helped us survive that we must turn away from our doors on a freezing winter’s night because “housing” doesn’t allow us to have overnight guests that stay too long or make too much noise. Of how many of us have been evicted because we’ve let the very people who insured our survival crash on the floor. Oh yes, it’s pleasant to be warm, the toilet flushes and there’s a sense of gratitude corrupted with survivor guilt because for everyone who is housed, we leave dozens behind, abandoned. We go to their funerals to mourn and feel more shame for being alive. We don’t talk about that to “outsiders”.

Behind closed doors, we talk about the isolation. About knowing that if one of us died today, our body might not be found for weeks.. If we are ill, no one will bring a street nurse from the clinic, warm a can of soup or call the ambulance. These aren’t counted as “homeless deaths”. Yet, no street crew would not scream for assistance should they see a member so ill s/he cannot function. The streets are a stern taskmaster. Yet the reality of poverty housing is that death happens frequently because “the worker wasn’t available” or “the neighbours didn’t notice anything until it started to smell.” Then the closest social service agency will throw some sort of memorial that has little to do with anything we might have actually wanted or believed.

Behind my brown door you’ll hear about the stunning invasions of privacy by social services, housing workers, case managers, supervisors, means-testers—none qualified to do intensive therapy yet digging into the painful pasts of those they claim to serve. Tearing apart the pieces without the skill of putting such a complex puzzle of a disrupted life back together.

There’s the $20 research studies that carry on endlessly around this city. Go to a conference, or research study get the $20-40 for your input, let someone shred your shame apart and analyze your personal tragedy then send you home with the honorarium for saying what you know they wanted to hear. Tell them all about your destruction, recall it, flashback by flashback and spend days swirling helplessly in traumatic memories with no supports. You’re just another research number. The twenty dollars can buy a bottle, or maybe a chicken dinner and chips to comfort you so you can pick your pieces up again. Maybe an old street crew friend will be around to share your woes but it certainly won’t be the paid worker who spends hours stitching up the emotional razor slashes.

The poor live with a chronic invasion of privacy, the likes of which no middle/upper class person would tolerate for an instant. Their life stories are passed from worker to worker, team to team, medical practitioners, psychiatrists, housing workers, social workers, bureaucrats, pharmacists, drop-in staffs, government officials all in the name of “help”.

Sign the dozens of consent forms, please, right here, at the “X”. Just in case, of course, that someone scams a nickel’s worth of taxpayer’s money, that although they might really need it, they are not legally entitled to have it. Then the “help” that has stomped on every shred of dignity that a poor person might possess complain that, “these clients have boundary issues.”

Of course we have no “boundaries” left. We bleed publicly to receive our pittances so often we can’t help but hate those we perceive, as ever-present paid-love, inconsistently abusive foster parents. We aren’t allowed to tell them, “Fuck off. I don’t want to talk about it.” or, “Fuck off. You know fuck all about housing the poor, my history, what I wanted for my life, or anything else, you clueless twit.”

Then we blame the poor for a “lack of willpower”.

Well, what creates “willpower”?

Willpower is belief that since we experienced effecting change in the past, we are capable of effecting change in the future.

If you have little experience with seeing change effected, why would you have any willpower to see something new through? The poor are up against the most powerful forces in the world. Most aren’t blinded by false hopes that buoy the middle class. Someone controls their money supply, controls their children, controls their housing, controls what employment that can have, controls their health-care, controls what medications they can access, controls their food supply, controls where they can live, controls what they are entitled to receive in education and on and on.



When the poor come up with a real solution, they are ruthlessly stomped on by the so-called left and right as well as the media unless being portrayed as pitiful victims with “mental health issues”.

Great ideas that the poor promote are stolen from their brains to be sanitized then utilized by the “professionals” as newfangled programs while agencies weasel out more funding by claiming it was a “client led idea”. The same client who showed up at the meeting because s/he needed the proffered free meal. No permanent pay-cheque to be had for the “client” who came up with the concept, of course. S/he is ‘not a qualified professional’. I stopped counting how many friends I’ve watched explode from injustice because some professional collected a pay-cheque after said friend instituted a great little inexpensive and much-needed program as an unpaid volunteer. How much “willpower” can one have left after that experience?

Housing squats and camps are a case in point. A “willing” crew gets together, unites and sets up house. Without legal title they are vulnerable to police raids. Social services might step in to “save” them, splitting them apart and isolating each into shelters and housing them far apart to “save problems”. Any sense of community or political influence they might hope to gain is shattered. They are given welfare or ODSP and turned from people with part-time work paying no rent into a begging citizenry. Some will not stay. They’ll find another bridge or crew. Then that community will be raided as well. Ah yes, ladies and gentlemen, these are the “hard-to-house-hardcore-homeless”.The merry-go-round goes on and on…

Social service agencies create “supportive housing”. The residents have no say in the rules, how the place is run, the level of service or intrusion into their personal space. Sometimes there are house meetings that pay lip service to the idea, but in truth, it’s just to shut the clients up, cut down on the roaches and bedbugs while it keeps the pay-cheques and status quo rocking along. If the residents “misbehave” they are told to “get into [name program] or be evicted.”

The ‘regular’ neighbours complain about the subsidized-housed ones, “They have no sense of community. They don’t care about their neighbours.” The same neighbours that sneer down their noses publicly at the “lazy bums” and complain about paying taxes for “welfare frauds.” Or perhaps, the neighbours that care realize there’s a problem but are simply ineffective at knowing what to do about it.

Jack Tafari who was a main founder of “Dignity Village” once told me, “My biggest challenge in building Dignity was convincing the de-housed they don’t have to stay in the missionary position.”

Or more crudely put by someone else, “It’s hard to stand up for anything when you’re forced on your knees to suck colonialist cock.”

So, what is the solution?

Stop blindsiding the poor with middle class social-work agendas. Face reality.

The government is never going to build enough, or adequate housing for every need. There is never going to be a 0% unemployment rate in this country. Those solutions don’t serve the politico-corporate agenda.

When the poor come up with their own communities or alternative solutions, support them. Show them that you will back solutions that are not your ideological preference. Show them that they can effect change if they fight. Fight to legalize their tent cities and their squats and their right to house themselves, work at whatever jobs they can for a little pay or jobs they can invent.

You’d be shocked at the energetic creativity some can unleash if you cut us loose.

Stop forcing us into the arms of social services because it assuages your guilt. Understand that every time a squat, trailer/van stop, or camp is crushed that you destroy our very hopes and dreams for a brighter, more independent future. Realize that you are turning your own countrymen into refugees. Fight for our right to build our own communities even if it looks like a messy eyesore to you.

Because that’s what it’s really all about.

The poor are an eyesore. We make you feel guilty when we’re hanging around under bridges, or at hobo camps, or panhandling somewhere public and political. Our visibility is proof that we as a society do NOT have enough housing and that we don’t have all the answers to poverty reduction, or unemployment, or disability or substance use or mental health struggles and we will never have perfect solutions.

Considering the economic downturn, letting people find creative alternatives is going to become even more imperative soon. We need to believe we can effect change.

Admit that the people who are considered “crazy”, or “addicted” might actually know more about dealing with other people sharing their fate than those who are profiting from their poverty. Stop blaming the poor for increasing poverty. When Harris gutted Ontario’s social programs and abolished rent controls and tenant protection laws, 100,000 de-housed people did not suddenly lose their minds in the following couple of years.

The present minimum wage will not cover the cost of rent in Toronto, or hardly anywhere else, for that matter.

Give us the support to assert our communal will, for our needs not promoted by the colonialist missionary agenda.

Support us to learn to WIN what we want, for ourselves. Wherever that might take us all.

It might even be somewhere better.

[***NOTE: Want to know what it actually cost to build apx 85 cabins in Tent City Toronto that housed 115people?

a.. About $1,000 in tools.
b.. $0 in reno scraps that we recycled.
c.. $200 per wood stove.
d.. $0 in oil barrels.
e.. $30 per propane heater
f.. and $10 per week in propane, candles and gaslights bought in by private donations.
g.. Second hand beds, bathtubs, furniture, all scrounged from the garbage of those better off or donated by supportive visitors.
h.. TDRC brought in some plastic houses that cost a few thousand each although that was not the majority of housing stock.
i.. TDRC and the city of Toronto supplied porta-potties. Cost unknown.
j.. Water was hauled from an open fire hydrant
k.. In short, our actual housing cost the taxpayers $0 although some residents used their $200 per month OW “street pay” or ODSP living allowance for tools and supplies which many also lent around the camp to build more housing.
The Pope Squat was in the process of being renovated compliments of the construction unions who also supplied materials. Now the new building owner has received hundreds of thousands in reno dollars from the City to produce rent-geared-to-income apartments too small for my dog to live in.


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Harper Regime Negates Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms

Ottawa says international duties take priority over Charter for stranded Canadian

MONTREAL — A federal government document involving the case of a Canadian man trapped in Sudan states Canada would violate its international obligations by allowing him to return home - an argument his lawyers say doesn't hold water.

Foreign Affairs issued a factum Friday outlining its position in the case of Abousfian Abdelrazik, who has been living in the lobby of the Canadian Embassy in Khartoum where he sought refuge almost one year ago.

The government document states that Abdelrazik's listing under an international travel ban takes precedence over his right as a citizen to enter Canada.

"Section 6 of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms does not guarantee a right to travel through other countries to enter Canada...The travel ban prohibits other states from allowing the applicant to enter into travel through their territories," it says.

And in a later paragraph: "The requested remedy of repatriation would interfere in matters of Crown prerogative, foreign affairs and high policy and risks putting Canada in breach of its international obligations."

Abdelrazik was arrested in Khartoum in 2003, where he went to visit his ailing mother.

His lawyers are set to appear in Federal Court next month to argue that Sec. 6 of the Charter of Rights and Freedoms - the right of a citizen to enter Canada - has been breached and he should be flown home by whatever means are necessary.

"The government is prioritizing international law over our Section 6 right to come back to Canada, our Charter of Rights and Freedoms," Abdelrazik's lawyer Audrey Brousseau told The Canadian Press.

"I think these are speculative arguments about the transit to other third-party states. There's a basic right of repatriation with (the international no-fly list) but Canada goes further and adds another obstacle and says we might need approval from other parties. This to me does not make sense."

Brousseau said in an interview that there are numerous documented cases of people on the UN 1267 list returning home. She says one example is Abdelghani Mzoudi, a Moroccan once accused of involvement in the 9-11 terrorist attacks.

Brousseau also points to a built-in exemption to the UN's no-fly list that allows justified transit or entry on a case-by-case basis.

"The government has create important hurdles for him to come back, so in that sense they have truly violated his rights," she said.

"What we're seeing here is that he doesn't need any approval. Alternatively, if they feel he needs and exemption, then go get it."

A spokesman for Foreign Affairs wouldn't comment directly on the factum but said the government has reasons relating to national security for preventing Abdelrazik from coming home.

"Mr. Abdelrazik is on the UN 1267 list as an individual associated with al-Qaida and is therefore subject to a travel ban and asset freeze," said Daniel Barbarie, adding the man was provided with regular consular assistance.

Abdelrazik's case has been gaining public support.

Family members have come forward urging the government to let him fly home and Liberal and NDP MPs have backed his cause.

Earlier this month, a group of some 170 supporters purchased a plane ticket for him to return to Canada but he was denied an emergency passport last minute on the grounds he is a national security threat.

Ottawa cited a section of the Canada Passport Order that allows the foreign affairs minister to "refuse or revoke a passport if the minister is of the opinion that such action is necessary for the national security of Canada or another country."

Further, Foreign Affairs Minister Lawrence Cannon announced in March that Abdelrazik would first have to get his name off the no-fly list.

However, the federal government had itself previously lobbied for the de-listing of Abdelrazik in 2007 after both the RCMP and CSIS cleared him of any involvement in terrorism or crime and Abdelrazik has also denied ties to Osama bin Laden.

The RCMP has said there is no information linking him to any crime and a recently published report suggests CSIS operatives were the ones who initially asked Sudanese authorities to arrest and detain Abdelrazik.

But the government document obtained by The Canadian Press from Abdelrazik's lawyers rejects that claim and also questions his allegations of torture while in Sudanese custody.

"They challenge the credibility of Abousfian Abdelrazik on the torture allegations," said Brousseau."These are serious allegations."

The document notes that Abdelrazik never mentioned any abuse when consular officials visited him in Sudanese jail.

"There is no documented evidence that the applicant ever reported to Canadian officials the torture he now alleges was inflicted by Sudanese officials," it says.

"Nor did consular officials, who are experienced or trained in looking for mistreatment, see any signs of the torture the applicant now alleges."

Abdelrazik says he kept mum on the mistreatment for years out of fear of reprisal and claims he later told three separate Canadian officials that he was abused, something they deny.

Now, Brousseau says the government has done everything in its power to obstruct her client's return and it's time they let him come back to Canada.

"The essence of our application is simple: bring this man home, repatriate this man by any safe means at your disposal," she said.

"We know you can do it. Do it."


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